I am running in the dark.
Is there light at the end of the tunnel?
As Time blurs the notions of this run, I hold my heart in my hands as I gain stride and exert all my energy into this run. I am not running on purpose. Time has forced me to.
I am trapped in a long cave, and I am not sure if that is light at the end of the tunnel, or just a car or a train…. or even a fallen star looking to get back up into oblivion.
I stop running, panting and holding my bleeding heart. At this moment, Time freezes for me. I want so badly to look at the stars, but I am a trapped animal in a cage of Time, Time that will not cease until I have ceased myself. I want so badly for you to be here with me, to put your arm around me and envelop me so that I forget the angels and demons of Time.
Past. Present. Future.
I wasn’t always in this cave, but I don’t remember ever not being here, and I am a scared little girl. I sink to the ground as the tears of a child stream down my face. Around me is nothing but dirt, dust, and darkness. I am sobbing, but I try to regain control over my breathing once I rise to my feet. My head feels heavy on my shoulders, and it is cold, but I take a deep breath and continue to run.
Time catches up to me as I continue to run. My heart is still in my hands as I strive to get to that light at the end of the tunnel. I am losing stride with Time now as it races ahead of me to the end of the cave and into the sun. I force my eyes to remain open, although I long to close them and rest, but I need to get out of here. Time is plunging ahead without a care in the world, and I am alone.
The light is now flooding into the cave, and I do not know if I am closer or not, but I see it, the light is closer now. I smile in spite of myself as I look down briefly to see budding flowers where there was once only dust. I stop running and pluck the flower, only to realize that the light is the sun, and I see the blue sky, and exit the cave where Time was trapped.
I look up at the star that is the sun and embrace the passage of Time as it is freed from the darkness and floods the world around me.